The weight of reason

Destiny breathes heavy and sweet down the back of my neck as she rides me, she sings
" Who cares where this road goes baby, believe in me and we'll fly like the wind."

You are what you want

I thought because I couldn't find what I wanted,
that I was wrong for wanting it.
It's taken this long to realise
I was looking in the wrong place all along.

The wish that wished it wouldn't

They told me be careful what you wish for,
 along with graphic warnings what was likely for those who played with fire.
  Now I long only for the gentle burn of desire itself,

As I stand melting in the roaring heat in the heart of your Love. 

And everything I touch returns to Gold.

Image : Elizaveta Porodina

fake it till you make what?

All the things that I always knew aren't always true any more.
My soul falls apart, till theres nothing left to believe.
all these pieces that I'm not even sure why I'd want to put back together if I could.
Yet I pretend because I don't know what else to do.

You know me

They said, I am That; They Said I'm all That,
Yet as nice as it sounds it doesn't feel completely true.
 How can I be all that if I'm this?

Lovers condendrum

 I couldn't save you any more than you couldn't save me.
Desire is not a fire to be quenched, it is the spark of life itself.

incompletely insane

Listening closely to everything we said, and suddenly what we couldn't say was obscenely obvious.

And my soul wanted to scream in a way that my mind couldn't quite keep hold on.

It squeaked out of me even though I kept my mouth fast shut, so I sounded like a kettle on the boil. 

Of course you laughed, and once you did even I could see how funny it was. 

And I laughed too, But the frustration was still there, igniting a madness that was bigger than I was. 

Both inappropriate yet uncontainable, I had no choice. 

The voice of mercy spoke through closed lips a high pitched squeal of absolute absurdity. 

I was out of control switching between insanity and ensuing hilarity. 

And then I was falling, and I was frightened trying to catch myself and it was gone. 

And I don't really remember what happened then, but I think I was angry, maybe I still am.

I didn't know enough to begin to tell you what went down, I'm still not sure but Im trying.

The Cosmic Wow

forget about getting down to earth, I'm sky high

and way out there with the freaken universe.

photo by Susanna Majuri

Because is not a reason

Why ask why? I'm all over understanding, but God do I feel you.

I feel you so strongly I'm beginning doubt my own existence.

Photo by TierneyGearon,

God only knows

I always had a plan, and the plan was always you.

It may not be the best plan, but I'm willing to bet my life that it is.

The myth of intimacy

No matter how or where you touch me,

you'll never come as close as if you stay still and let me feel your soul.

Vanities legacy

Forever couldn't turn away,

her face was everywhere,

and she knew all of it was true enough to entertain us.

She watches from behind the mirror,

touching me inside the deepest Love,

the softest distance,

whispering these words that mean so little too much.