You are Here

There's holes inside that make me who I am, I'm scared that if you get too close, you'll fall right in and disappear there. Like I did.

Image from underwater ballet series by Nadia Moro

Dreams on Light

1.

First there is the time and the space but more than that the need,

("What is your burning desire?"), to be. 

you taught me the pleasures of darkness, to let my eyes close and still see,

Leaning into the stillness I gather the sweet strength from the inside of everything.

Where alone becomes all one -

and when the lights come on I discover you were with me all along.

2.

Somehow I strayed from the path,

 just a small misturn while my mind was somewhere else

I thought I could retrace it but first I wondered where it went.

And I am lost but for now unconcerned, because everywhere is connected somehow right?

3.

The world of flux and change gathers me closer, and further than I thought it could.

and it gets so dark so quick,

 I want to phone you to come get me but I can no longer see my hand.

No longer sure if I exist at all, 

Until I open my eyes and awaken to another dream of light.

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Image: What Light dreams by Koh Sang Woo

surely not

I used to be one of those people who could use the word love with certainty- I knew what it was.

That it was good,

 that it was everything, 

that it was all that mattered and all that ever would.

And now I'm not so sure of anything, 

even if for that, 

I should thank or fear you. 

understanding the laws of gravity

If there has to be a time for things to go wrong, why not make it now.

Maybe once we get it out of our system we can settle into the business of happily ever after.

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The only thing I bet my life on

Who'd have thought it would take me this long to learn absolutely nothing.

Image by Sarolta Ban

here where nobody knows my name

It doesn't matter about me, I wanted to be invisible, so I could sneak in close and stroke your soul, without you even knowing I'm here.

I wanted you to know I loved you without having the responsibility of carrying your heart because It feels so soft I'm scared I might break it without even trying.

falling star

Maybe instead of wishing I wouldn't fall in Love quite so easily, this time I'll wish it didn't scare me quite so much. Maybe I'll wish this time when I fall your ready to catch me.

Image: Birds by Marica

Absolutely

All that it takes for me to Love you like I do is yours, whatsoever whenever wherever however you are.

Before God even thought to exist, I had no choice but to be this yes I had to say here now for you forever.

The winner of the world

Your salt and sweat speak a new language against my own tongue.

The feelings thick and sweet catch heavy in my heart, 

Coughing up feathers full of birds that don't know how to sing.

The scent of your pleasure overwhelms the stars 

swooning dizzily around my head and about again.

And I fall down, surrender to the world that you deserve to win.

Why not Love the things you hate?

When I look at you my heart squirms,
I'm not sure it's fair,
It's definitely not reasonable,
I have no idea what to do about it,
But this is my life and I've decided I'm going to enjoy it
Even if it kills us both.