Why I'm not afraid of dying for this Love

still I use this dull knife 

to cut under the skin

to see if I can't find some space for that despair

that gave you such certainty that God was Wrong.

But all I find is more blood.

Constant Movement

And In that moment, I remembered

how to feel

gravity

no longer pulling me down

but holding me here

not just feet on the earth,

but a part of it.

And I felt the majesty of our constant turning

riding this life, astride your steady back, (my open thighs)

through time and space

to this moment again and again

forever

glowing remnants of exploding stars

where nothing is certain

and certainly not I.

Image : Carefully broken pebbles, Andy Goldsworthy

mine-never-mind

There's a thousand different voices inside my head
Looking for the one true God,
Or anything to believe in.
They're shouting
"Think Louder"
because I can't feel if this is real or not,
but maybe all of them are wrong.

Image" It's all wrong"  from here 

It's kinda funny

I'm not laughing at you, I'm laughing with you.
If your not laughing, you have only yourself to blame.

Call off the search

It's not Just that I don't know who I am these days,
It's that I'm not even sure that I care anymore.

How it is

I'd like to tell you how this works,
But I only know how it doesn't work,
It's just like this.

But don't think I don't love you
Don't think I'm not happy with the way this doesn't work
Don't think at all, It hurts.

He Said She Said

It doesn't matter what you say,
I Love you more than words
More than feelings,
This Love is all thats left of me.

the unfortune tellers secret

Of all the things that I didn't see coming, you are my favourite.
And all those things I saw were just dreams that might never come true.
I was blinded by the light of possibility, burned by my own desire for more.
Now I'll always be here to tell you what's not going to happen.....

There is no happy ever after, after this
And I'll always forgive,
But I'll never forget you.

Don't look now

I'm watching you,
            watching me,
but I don't want you to see me,
                    so I have to look away.

But I still see you,
     in my minds eye,
  all the time,
         somedays I can't see anything else.

So Sorry

I lied but I was wrong, I might be still wrong, I might never be right, but I can't stop trying, even though I don't even know what I want.