Life's betrayal

breathing sleeping dreaming in

my body breaking 

sorry

for all the mess

the sounds and the smells too close to be my own anymore

desire itself

of and for being 

here and there 

and everywhere

as you kiss me 

and my skull caves in.

Deaths Ghost

lurching through hallways
The wheels go clunk
and everything
I do wrong
is wrong
an unforgivable unlovable feeling
of my immeasurable sadness
closing her fingers around my heart
sure at last
of the one thing
I never wanted to know.

Godless Promise

Let me fall down
and my heart break
so that the world can get all the way inside me.
Let me let go of holding on
and sadness frame this grief
without your name.

And I will love the life of my death
all the way back from eternity to you,
to the time the clocks will never tell
disordered perfectly
as if nothing always happened
just like this.