eyes lie

if I could tell you my secret it wouldn't be a secret anymore.

If what I want is wanting then wanting is what we'll have.

the cynical optimist binding the truth beneath the way I feel. 

The beauty behind my closed eyes opens into this

the stillness inside the song 

dancing to hoofbeats of silences passage

 passing through ever ready time.

Ride with me here 

Past the edge of tears already fallen 

answer the sweet sweet call of my empty heart, (still so tender)

broken open to let more of you in.

Rough Love

I've been meaning to tell you

the taste of my tongue

against the width of your smile

secreted inside my crooked teeth

How even if I did bite of more than I could chew

I'd swallow you whole if I have to.

never truth

The words were all over me
creeping through the spaces in between my fingers,
and sticking my tongue to the roof of my mouth.

The layers of meaning roared across the surface where only silence stood still,
echoing memories of something I once dreamed
not quite as beautiful as this.

Grounded with this butterfly pin you stuck in my back
stabbing my eyes with your hungry pain
soft with the song of the never truth, that I can't say.

playing the game

My life snuck up on me

she put her hands over my eyes and said guess who?

That was 30 odd years ago, 

and I'm still blind 

and guessing 

hoping

maybe it's you.

xo

murdering the musical

You have the right to remain silent, but then again you could also burst into song.

all along

And in that moment I knew,
I didn't need to GET what I wanted,
because I already had it,
 already was it,
 and I'd just been pretending like all of you.

everythings fine

All the things that we say,
and the thoughts that we think
the wishes I never even wanted to come true
Everything that might have happened
falling into that same black whole
that beautiful smooth darkness
where it all began
the curve of your face
touched with love itself
more than time could ever tell
exploding in slow motion
losing forever
An elephants tears
for we remember nothing
and to this we shall be true.