Just having the feelings is good too ( if they are good feelings), but on the other hand, I know how its a struggle when you dont think theyre coming out right in words that youre happy with...as I just went through that. It seems to keep getting harder for me but i know about when theres nothing there and how that feels different, and it does suck.
The last thing I did when I felt like that was write even more and most of it was garbage but somehow it still felt good after the struggle.I eneded up jumbling poems together squinting and reading them backwards looking for a revelation of some kind, funny thing is it kind of worked eventually and at least I was back to my normal struggling ways. I also just didnt post a couple days too and at one point thought of taking a posting vacation because I was freaked out that I couldnt express my feeling the way I wanted to. Your blog is like a second home lately for me, I always get excited when a new post comes out, and i hope you dont mind these long comments :)
You are going to know it in good time. Sometimes, we just have to be patient with ourselves :)
ReplyDeleteJust having the feelings is good too ( if they are good feelings), but on the other hand, I know how its a struggle when you dont think theyre coming out right in words that youre happy with...as I just went through that. It seems to keep getting harder for me but i know about when theres nothing there and how that feels different, and it does suck.
ReplyDeleteThe last thing I did when I felt like that was write even more and most of it was garbage but somehow it still felt good after the struggle.I eneded up jumbling poems together squinting and reading them backwards looking for a revelation of some kind, funny thing is it kind of worked eventually and at least I was back to my normal struggling ways. I also just didnt post a couple days too and at one point thought of taking a posting vacation because I was freaked out that I couldnt express my feeling the way I wanted to.
Your blog is like a second home lately for me, I always get excited when a new post comes out, and i hope you dont mind these long comments :)
I thought I was the only one who felt this way. Thanks for showing me otherwise.
ReplyDeleteSometimes it feels like it's going to break me,
ReplyDeletebut maybe thats exactly what it's supposed to .